Endeavouring Life

A Great Man

2011-07-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

I was having my dinner in KFC just now, just like everyday else. But a sight just in front of me changed my feeling for the whole night.

Just in front of me, sitting by the table opposite me was a father and his son. The father was approximately 60 years or above, his wrinkles and eyes revealed his age. Sitting opposite him was his big-built son. Telling from his strands of silver between his black hair, I guessed that he must be over 35 years old.

At first, they were just a a common pair of father and son, perhaps a little bit more loving pair who the son still eats KFC with the father after 40 plus years.

Then, I started to realise that they aren't any pair of father and son that I see on the streets everyday. The son, was mentally handicapped. At that moment, in my mind, a thought sprang to life: this old man in front of me is a great man that raised his special child for at least 35 years!

When a child is born, many parents will hope that their child will become successful one day. In my opinion, as long as the child is healthy and without any disabilities, the parents are already the lucky ones.

Take a look at the old man I saw. His child, for 40 long years, didn't know how to say Happy Father's Day, couldn't sing 'Happy Birthday' properly, and perhaps have never breathed a word of appreciation to his great father. But in the father's mind, the father understands, he understands that his child is special and it is a challenge that the supreme beings up there laid on him.

Raising a child is not easy, what about a special child? The father sustained the child's life for 4 decades and he knew, his child will never be able to support him back after his retirement. Yet, I still saw him feed his child, and his eyes, full of love. In his mind, he isn't worrying about his own life, but how will his child live on after his day comes. The day that the supreme beings relief him of such burden, will perhaps be the most excruciating day for him, for that he will leave his special child, to walk on his own from that day onwards. At that instant, how I hope I could tell the old man: Uncle, you are a great man!

Looking at these special people, I felt remorseful that I always complained on the things that I couldn't have. Being able to walk, talk, listen, flex my arms and writing this post is already a priceless gift.

If our parents are great, parents with special children are even greater. If not even the first part of the previous statement exists in your mind, you should ask yourself, what is wrong with you.

For now, I only hope that the old man does not only has one son, maybe another child who can someday WILLINGLY take over his sacred job of supporting the special person's life and so that the old man can someday leave this world without leaving carrying any worries with him. And I sincerely hope, that my future child will be healthy and able person, and that is more than enough. This is because when I asked myself if I have the courage and determination to face such life, I couldn't answer myself.

"Uncle, you are a great man!"

Good to be home, but it shouldn't be too long.

2011-01-31T21:27:00.004+08:00

Finally, the rain stopped after two days. The temperature here went so low that I have to wear a jacket. Day by day, I miss home more than I used to do. It has been 1 week and 3 days I have been in a new country (a new record for me), a country more modern and developed than my home country but yet less than 10% of my country's total area. Although life is more systematic here, I still love my home country, where I can live freely without any worries.
Every moment that my mind went idle, I start to doubt whether I have made a right choice to start a new life here. From what I heard from the seniors, junior college in Singapore is nowhere near easy, the only phrase that can used to summarise their experience, is 'excruciatingly hard'. Whats worse, most topics that Singaporeans learn in O level is not even mentioned in SPM. So, what we are facing now is a road with a gradient of 90 degrees, and the steepness isn't going to reduce anywhere.
However, in this dark region of my life, there is still a ray or perhaps few rays of golden sunshine. For one, I have quite some relatives here. Next, I have known quite a lot of friends here, especially my fellow roommates, who are the best you can ever have. On usual day, besides my friend, another thing that can cheer me up is the roar of fighter jets flying overhead.
Back to my doubts, I can't really imagine what will happen if either I'm terminated or if I can't stand the pressure here. I may have a comfortable life and an easy academic path back in Malaysia, but I came here to give myself a challenge. Only God knows what will it end like.
Two more days and I will be back on Malaysian soil again, but not for long, for that I will have to return soon, to start a journey full of challenges, pain, stress and everything that causes sufferings but yet, able to train a person into a human that can compete in the competitive society of the 21st century. If I succeed, it will be a success; If I fail, it just mean that I made a big mistake that consumes money in a currency 2.4 times greater than my home currency.
I really miss my home, a place that everything is within the reach of hand, a place that I feel warm even in the middle of the night.

Rediscovered

2010-12-15T23:14:00.002+08:00

Alright. My last post? 9th March 2009, more than one and a half year ago. Contents? Worrying about choosing the wrong stream. Description about my blog? A diary buried under heaps of work.
At this very second, I have completed another stage of life while simultaneously stepping into the next. By taking this historic step, I have to leave a lot behind, preserving them as pieces of memories, happy or sad, and leave them to fade in the waves of time. I believe this period of time will be an emotional one. That is why, I unearthed my blog from the dust of time.

New way of living

2009-03-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

It has been more than three months since I posted my last passage. In the year 2009, I stepped into a new chapter of my life or to some people it may just be a sub-chapter, it is my upper secondary studies. As we all know, the lower secondary school studies in Malaysia is nothing but when it comes to upper secondary, the whole scenario changes.
PMR is just a small step while to succeed in SPM will be a giant leap. To bridge this gap, we have to be mentally ready for it, not only that we need to increase our hardwork but at the same time, we have to learn how to cope with failures. People say Form 4 is a honeymoon year to students but when I reached form 4 then only I realized that honeymoon year does not exist at all in Malaysia, even if it exists, it had already been in the past.
Form 4 is actually a critical turning point that will affect your entire life. Choosing the right stream, the suitable subjects, tuition, ambition are crucial at this point. One slight mistake will change your life totally from what you have imagined. Life goes on and you can't change the past.
Although we are facing a crucial turning point, some people may not be aware of it. Still, they jeopardise their future by involving in relationships. These people are people who believe in the existance of honeymoon year. In my opinion, love relationship may boost somebody towards achieving their goals but the problems in the relationship will at the same time fail you as if you have been shot down from the sky. So, why take the risk?
It is undeniable that controlling our feelings is not an easy task at all. But somehow, we have to find a way to go around it instead of plunging straight into it.

Social

2008-11-25T21:39:00.003+08:00

Socialisation is actually not bad thing as interpreted by most of the community nowadays. Socialisation is actually the systemic interaction between people just like every living things do. Any activities that involve two or more people together is counted in this category. However, the real definition and examples are too hard to explain. No one can explain it exactly. Social, is one of the most common yet hardest activity in human world.
In your life, every change in your life, whether major or minor, affects your social life. Of course, starting something new will totally alter your social life. After changes, the first thing you do is to adapt to the new environment. For me, it isn't really hard but what breaks your heart is that when you started to get used to it and you discover that something is going to change again.
When you go into a complete new environment, you will find somebody(s) that will guide you through the adapting process and help you along the way. So, you value them and respect them very much. How if once you start to be adapted to it and you discover that they are leaving.
Meeting some new people may make you happy or maybe not. However, farewell always bring sadness. Even when the person that you hate the most left, you will feel a short period of happiness but slowly, you will discover that it isn't that happy at all.
So people ask, why don't we always stay the same and never meet new people. This is absolutely useless. First, it is impossible, even if you become a monk on a certain mountain, you still have to meet new monks sometimes. Secondly, you will become a frog in a sealed well. Without changes in life, it is impossible for people to live.
The conclusion is, social is just like a virus without cure. It mutates from time to time and you have to adapt it, if you don't, you fail. Its just...complicated.

Science and Technology

2008-10-31T22:43:00.005+08:00

Everything in the world has two faces, a good one and a bad one. Normally,people will only see the good face until when the bad face causes serious problems to them. In the case of science and technology,it is the same. Every invention, although it is beneficial, brings certain harm to us.

Recently,fictional plans of the past started to become real. The time machine, clonning are some of the examples. These inventions I expect, will be the steps to the devastation of mankind. Since long ago, stories like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde bears the theme of man should not play god, however, the advance in science and technology have made man a kind of god.

First of all, the time machine. If it is really invented, we could know our past too well that none of the details in history will be missed. But, if man keep going to the past and future without regulation, the world will be upside down. We may recieve people from the future and history, will be the subject that requires variation maybe every second. This is because our intelligent historians will go back to the past and change the history that changed our lives. Latest technology will go to the past. Maybe that time, archeologist may find aeroplanes used by paleolitic people. So what would history be? What will the world be? This will be the doomsday without people dying.

Time machine invention is not impossible at all. From a long time ago, the scientific theory of space time have proven that time is able to be stopped reversed or even forwarded. I have always a silly thought in my mind. I think that our time may stop and continue back because like fictions, even time stopped for 10000 years, we still cannot feel it because everything stopped. Scientist from the world said that in the future of 40 years, time machine maybe introduced to the public.

Secondly, clonning. This is actually a condemned act from the view of religion. Man are created by God but with clonning, we create ourself. Then, there will always be a second me in the world or worst like in Star Wars, an unlimited number of the same person. Try to think, there are people out there who look exactly like you, think, and act exactly like you. How horrible it is. And at that time our DNA is so precious, people may steal a strand of hair from you and clone another person without your knowledge. That time, I think I will wear a spacesuit while I walk in the street, stop people from entering my house and maybe incinerate straws, cups and cutlery that I have used immediately after use.

Fictions are fictions. In movies, they always say that our another clone may be a bad personality but I think it is impossible. As clone thinks exactly the same as you, both of you will think in the same way. But loving the same person or thing maybe a true phenomenon.

As you can see, pollution is not just the only harm of science. Life is still life, we have to live on no matter how. I don't really want to see the world with time machine and clonning. Perhaps by that time I may migrate to moon or other planets.

Note: Try to guess what is the symbol on top of the post.

Friends

2008-10-20T22:00:00.002+08:00

'Yay, PMR is over, lets go celebrate',this is what had been said by every PMR candidate on the last day of exam. Of course on that day, plans that have been made a long time ago finally have a chance to be carried out. However, none of my early plannings could be done.
Long before the PMR, we sat together, planning activities, looking for suitable venues, and expressed all our opinions. We planned to go for movie, shopping, meals, and also enjoying wine at a friend's house. But today, they are just imaginations and hope that are considered impossible.
If you don't know me well, the factor of it will sure be a question that appears in your mind. So now let me tell you a regret in my heart that I can do nothing about it as I am not involved but still being affected.
In daily life we get new friends and have to leave some of them, there are meetings and also painful farewells. These plannings are made impossible because of a triangular cold war between friends. In this war, people are being hurt but I was the psycological doctor in this case as in chinese there is a saying stating that spectators are always clearer than the people involved.
Three of my best friends with extremely different personality, broke off. After their wound healed, it left me as the lonely person where I have to seek resort in other places. Although I don't want to mention their name but, their personality 'genre' should be revealed. The first one is of course the most crazy one, a responsible one and a realistic and responsible one. Until today almost months after the incident, I still do not know what factor acted as the spark plug of this controversy. I don't even know what is the controversy. I did wanted to ask but I didn't as I do not want to sprinkle salt on their wound.
Human relationship is like that, hard to understand while easy to misunterstand. I rather prefer to study twenty years of pure chemistry than to understand ties between human and human. We are the creature with greatest wisdom and this wisdom also cause us to be troubled by grief , always.
How much do I hope that we could be as usual as in the past but it is just impossible. All I could do is to look at their deteriorating relationship day by day until the day where there is no more ties between them or worst, a negative animosity bond that will last forever.
As there are nothing that could be done, so why don;t we look at the future and never turn back to see our past. Learning from the past may be beneficial but at the same time may be painful.
Perhaps this triangle that blended into my personality, carziness, responsibility and reallistic.

The days after PMR

2008-10-20T21:42:00.004+08:00

After 3 years of moderate hardwork, I finally finished my first govermental examination in my secondary studies. Of course, every on knows that it is the PMR. After, PMR students were celebrating as if they finished their life. Actually, they shouldn't be too happy about it.
As the saying goes, every end of everything is the start of something else. So, after this challenge, we have to confront other challenges, harder and tougher. This is an unavoidable process of life that make us mentally matured to face the many challenges when we finish our studies.
After PMR while people are still celebrating, an imminent 'threat' is walking towards us. It is the result of the PMR. This desperate wait for the result may cause people to have imsonia every night while some will take it as nothing.
When the result is announced, most will be in tears whether tears of joy or ironically, tears of sorrow and regret. This wait, although is relatively short compared to facing the examination is what I call desperate because what had to be done had been done. During the examination, the power to determine is in our hands, we can do changes to our result while regarding the result, there is nothing that could be done.
The announcement of PMR result will will mark the initiation of a tougher challenge, the higher secondary. During that period, we need to consider uncountable amount of things that may determine our career in our future, one single mistake step may cause you to live in sorrow for the rest of your life.

7.5 or 7

2008-09-26T22:58:00.002+08:00

Few days before today, my friend ask me a question that you can get a same answer from anybody that knows basic mathematics: Is RM7 better or RM7.5 better. If you are still rational, of course you will say RM7.5 is better. However, in the case of government examinations, the scenario is different.
For these examinations, RM7 is better. WHY? The stupid reason behind this is because RM7.5 is not a whole number. If this reason is directly applied into this case, it will be: 7A's is better than 7A's 1B just because the word straight A's. In my school, we are already so used to this word that it nearly post no meaning to us. While we do not care much about our exam our principal do.
What kind of reason is this. From a long time ago, Malaysian school sylabus has been criticised as one of the worst in the world. From compulsary subject to their language medium and from their mission to the detais, nothing is good enough.
These are only part of it, the part that some students like the most and hate the most is the graph system used to determine the marks of grades in government examinations. This system is generally unfair to some people. It also gives a reason to those lazy people for not studying, only hoping that the graph will fall and they can easilly get an A.

My Hobbies

2008-09-12T20:47:00.002+08:00

In my age, most teenagers will prefer latest songs from genres of rock, pop and lots more. However, in this case, I just differ from them.
For me, I would prefer classical music and orchestrian musics. This interest cause me some difficulties in pursuing it. Firstly, it is not easy to find the titles I like because there is not much of this kind of music in the market. Secondly, they are expensive and lastly, it is not easy to find the ones I like especially life performances. So when I see there are life classical music performance anywhere, I will just stop and listen. I remember that a few day before today, a friend of mine played piano in the school hall and I put everything down just to listen to her. Her skills were unexpectedly great.
Even though I love music very much, I think I wouldn't learn musical instruments. This is because they are to expensive to purchase and I wouldn't want to burden my family. If given a chance, I will choose to learn violin. As I left myself no choice, the only way is to get a lot of money to get somebody to play for me or get a wife or girlfriend that know how to play musical instruments, preferably classical instruments like piano, violin, flute etc.
Actually, from young until now, none of my hobbies are cheap. Recently they are worst. Remote control aviation toys, photography, computer and music. All of them cost thousands!!

Some of My Habits

2008-09-12T20:38:00.003+08:00

Nearly everyday in school, there will be somebody who calls me to slow down my step because they cannot follow my speed. It has been now my habit but few years before this, it wasn't.
When I first entered my secondary school, I didn't have much friend and because there are too many great people here I don,t have enough self-confidence. I am so unconfident that even when I walk, I don't even know the right posture that I should walk in. So, I will walk extremely fast so that I can reach my destination as soon as possible. I feel more comfortable while in class or while sitting.
Along the time period, I started to gain my self-confidence back but by the time I had it, I have already made walking fast a daily habit.
Another habit that came the same way is my position of hand. If you can notice, I seldom place my hand on my side whether when I am standing or sitting. It will be either behind or in front of me.

My School Life

2008-09-12T20:12:00.003+08:00

Sigh...There has been a long time ago since I last touched my computer, there has bee a lot of exams recently. One more month and there is going to be my PMR examination. The pressure that is coming towards me makes me think of the days before my UPSR exam and my school life along these years.
In my primary school, although I am not the best student in school, but I am quite famous in my school. Most teachers know me while many students are familiar with me. However, nothing will exist eternally. After my UPSR exam, my application to enter SMK Aminuddin Baki was approved.
Here, I started my academic life all over again.
People always say, to success, we must know how to start from zero. Like a calculator, after every calculations, we have to return it to zero in order to continue. Every end of something is a start of another thing until the day we no longer can think of. In my secondary school, there are so many talented people. The first days of my life in this school was quite lonely for me.
Two of my primary school classmates accompanied me to this school, but all of us were of different personality and have different aims. Other friends have brothers or sisters or even familiar seniors that will help them in school but I have none of them. All I have to do is to start my life by my own.
The main success in my secondary school is that I became a prefect. From there I learn a lot of things, had a lot of friends and most importantly, the duties filled up my free time in school that I have no one to spend with. That is why, I seldom spend time with friends. In chinese, there is a saying : the relationship of a man is as stale as plain water. This means that a successful person will always go after their goals and not relationship. Because of this, I was unaware that I neglected friendship.
And now, I realised a lot of things and my life is at least better than the lonely days.

Why retired people hate retirement...

2008-08-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

To me, it is already late in the night and I should be sleeping right now but I don't know why I just can't close my eyes. I was listening to some of my favourite music just now but the songs just sound unfamiliar to me. They were slightly faster than the version I like. I check the player, there was nothing wrong and I check the clock, there was nothing wrong too. The only possible error left is myself.

Since after my trial exams, I don't know why my life is slower while the time passes faster and faster. At first I thought that it was the exam result which is bothering me but when I compared them to my previous records, they are simply acceptable. So, whats my problem?

I asked myself this question continuosly and at last, I got the correct answer.

I have been a prefect for three years. The drab and routined duties of a prefect had simply been a part of my life cycle. Everyday, they were like my time table. I did not realize it until the very first day that I stopped my duty as a prefect on order so that the examination classes prefects can concentrate fully on our studies. For that three years, I was like a goldfish in a pool of water, I never realize the water around me until I got out of it.

Actually, the answer for my question is I lost part of my used-to-be life. Duties were part of my life and now, they are out of my life and I need time to get used to it.

This is actually a mental phenomenon that we can see in almost every office in the world. Before retiring, people would hope for their retirement to come sooner so that they can enjoy the freedom of life. When they are retired, they will start thinking about their job all the time. This is because they are so used to their life without freedom that they cannot live together with freedom. This explains why so many retired people get depression after retiring.

Humans are like that, they won't know how to appreciate somthing until the day they lost it. For now, I will try to get use to my partially new life and prepare to start all over again next year where I will be a prefect, again...

In the Mind of a Prefect

2008-06-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

In the eyes of most students, a prefect seems to be a person granted with the power to lead other ordinary students. They always think that prefects are generous people that are willing to sacrifice their precious time to serve the school. Actually, the truth behind this is another story.

Firstly, in this world there is actually no people which is so generous to sacrifice their precious time with friends in order to serve the school. In this case, people will ask, why there are still so many students applying to enter the prefectorial board? For most prefects and myself, the primary reason we applied to be a prefect is to get merits in co-curicular results. Secondly, we wanted to become a prefect because of the power and exception we can get while being a prefect. Thirdly, we wanted to get the experience of working in an organised body and to learn the ways of communicating with various people. And serving the school and controlling the schools discipline would only be the last reason. Of course, when going for the interview, this sequence will probably be turned around just to satisfy the interviewers.

At the starting of your prefect 'carreer' everyone will be very strict and carry out your duties very well. However, this phenomenon will fade away slowly after sometime.

In my school, our prefectorial policy is too inefficient and outdated therefore not really suitable for practical means. Prefects are being bonded to this policy resulting in a major loss of power and integrity. That is why, students do not respect the prefects and now, even teachers are not cooperating with us. In most teachers' mind, they think that prefects' duty is to serve the school and they will do everything and anything. When we fail to perform, they will complain us. They had never thinked before about what the school will be if the prefects are absent for only one day. Everyday, our duties are as heavy as the teachers. Furthermore, they are paid but we are not.

This very dissapointing phenomenon is lowering our spirits day by day, making us to slack when we carry out duties. Although the higher commitee can see this, but they are doing nothing. From the very first day I understand the prefectorial policy, I made a very ambitious decision. I promised myself, if I manage to be enrolled into the highest commitee of the prefectorial board, I will renew this policy. I know that it is quite impossible but the chances are too low that even myself could not assure my ambition.

If any people have read this confession, I would really like to please you to at least give the littlest respect to us. We have sacrifised so much and we get actually nothing at the end. I could still remember an incident when I first became a prefect. I was rather awkward and funny, I could say and until now, I still do not know the reason behing it. My closest friend wrote a letter to me complaining that I am spending too little time with them! I always tell other people: we are just prefects not perfect.

I really hope that could change things but if I can't at least let me finish all my school years and I will totaly forget about it forever.

Lucky or Unfortunate

2008-06-13T21:07:00.000+08:00

Our parents always say that we are much luckier that they are. The old generation will always say that we are in the most fortunate generation. However, we may not be as lucky as they think.
There is an undeniable fact that we can enjoy our lives more that our parents used to be. We have television, radio, computer, Playstation, online games, MP3 and lots more but however these enjoyable things are only materialistic enjoyment.
Nowadays, childhood may mean nothing to some children from our generation. Their childhood is just study, pressure from parents, work and full of conflicts and stress. Compared to the childhood of our parents, we are very unfortunate. Today, there are too many smart people that the competition is incredibly high even in primary school level. That is why, there have been a lot of smart but immoral students now as a result of over pressure in their childhood. Although they will be successful when they grow up, however, the future society will be a immoral society without symphaty and lack of love.
Merely four years after we were borned, Malaysia faced it's worst economy crisis. And now, there are signs of an imminent economy crisis soon due to the increase of petroleum price.
Besides, the crime rate today is very high. We cannot have the freedom to move about in the city as how our parents used to. Every second outside the house we have to worry about our own safety.
Another problem that our generation have to face is natural disaster. A report stated that the most frequent word used in this century is 'donate'. Nearly everyday, natural disaster happen in all parts of the world and take away lots of lives.
As you can see, we are actually less fortunate than our parents' generation. But if we compare our lives with those children who lived in the war times, we are very lucky. Humans are like this, they will never be grateful about what they had. The debate about lives of generations will continue forever and may never end.

A Real Dream

2008-06-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I really think that God like to play game with me. I don't really know how should I accept these life twists. For a negative minded one, they will probably be very angry that why their life is so unfortunate. However, for a positive minded person, he will accept it and learn from things that happen in his life.
Two days before, I received instructions to redo my PBSM orientation. Right after that day, I started to get signatures from the committee members. I really spent a lot of effort in it so that I could finish it as fast as possible. My aim wasn't to be the fastest person to finish and also not for the honour of being the fastest. My aim is very simple, just to finish it so that it won't bother me always. I started early in the morning and even neglected my duties just to finish it and my efforts paid back when I left only the last signature by the end of the day.
At that point of time, I was quite proud of my achievements. Then, I left my orientation paper and started my class as usual. After a while, suddenly, I remembered my orientation and started looking for it. I was shocked when I couldn't find it and I even panicked in class. After searching every possible areas, I made a conclusion that I had lost it. I don't really know how to describe my feelings at that point of time, it is a mixture of panic, disappointment and sorrow.
At the same time, I was teased by my teacher and my fellow classmates and I don't even know what they are laughing about. With the mixture of feelings in me beside the burst of laughter in my class, I really don't know what reaction I should express. At last, I forced myself to smile meekly. Luckily, the subject of laughter changed not long after that.
Until now, I still feel very disappointed. I put in so much effort and when I am nearly finished, I lost all the results. It was just like a dream and I had to start all over again from zero. After that, I tried to do it again but unfortunately some of them refused.
However, I thought about the positive side and accepted it with open hearts. Actually, facing this kind of conflicts sometimes may be useful. We can learn how to face conflicts, how to accept it so that when we grow up, our mentality will be tougher than the other people whom their live is always a bed of roses. When we grow up, we are going to face much more than this such as betrayal, the worst conflict in life.
For your information purposes, this incident happened on Friday, 13 of May. Perhaps it is a phenomena of Friday the Thirteen. Believe it or not depends on how you think about this date.

China, 12 May 2008

2008-05-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

China is the origin of our Chinese race in Malaysia, so I think we should at least care for more about this huge country in the world. Mentioning China at this point of time would probably make you think of the Earthquake Disaster that is believed to kill more that 80,000 of Chinese and also a few pandas in China. There are actually a lot of horrifying scenes that maybe most of you haven't seen. This morning I was stopped by my friend from talking about it before I could finish my story because they find it quite irritating.
First of all, lets talk about kids in China. As the earthquake happened at school hours in China and 'thanks' to the weak structure of Made in China school buildings constructed by irresponsible contractors, schooling children make up a large amount of the casualties in China. In these kids, i find a young girl very tough and i think i should take her as my example in my life. When the paramedics and rescue teams were there to save her, they found out that her leg was trapped under rock debris that couldn't be moved quick enough to save her from the Death God's hand. Their only way is to amputate her legs. The girl told the doctor:' Uncle, please save me, if you have to cut my legs do it. I don't need them.' At that time, the girl had not realize that she was already an orphan.As they didn't had proper medical equipment, guess what the used to cut her legs. A fireman axe, a kitchen knife and a ordinary scissors, all of them unsterlised. And what is worst is, they didn't used any kind of anesthetics nor any form of pain killers. The girl was of course, screaming all along the process. Paramedics performed these same surgeries to at least 3 children and among them, 2 died right after that.
While a doctor performed the surgeries, they heard a weak voice from under the debris, calling him to move a fallen door away and he will come out by himself. However, he was trapped too deep inside the debris and the doctor is still working on a patient. They had no choice but to neglect and sacrifice him because nothing could be done. The voice slowly fainted off and never been heard again.
Some trapped casualties depended on rainwater and even urine, to avoid themselves from dying of dehydration.
Until now, the time has already exceeded nearly 300 hours and the chances to find survivors are as low as looking for a tiny needle in the Pacific Ocean. I hope that God will lessen the people's suffer. If they are going to die soon, let it be sooner; if they are going to continue their life, let them be found immediately. Lastly, i hereby pledge to the readers of this passage to mourn at least for a while for those who have died, and also for those who had their painful bereavement. I hope that the people in the world would lend out your hands to help the survivors of this painful disaster, so that they could leave a better life after this whether mentally or physically.

School 'Parasites'

2008-05-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

On this night of freedom, the night that I should enjoy the most after my mid-year exam, I should have been enjoying myself very much. However I am quite under the weather today. First of all is my pre-marking result of a few paper that disappoint me very much and the second, the most shocking one is a few poem written by one of my best friend expressing that how sad he is and how disappointed he feels as a result of being 'used up' by other person. I really hope that he is not talking about me.
In my school, although it is categorized as one of the best school in KL but I feel that it isn't as good as it looks like. Maybe other schools are worst but I don't know and i also don't want to know the dark side of it. In our school, there are basically two types of students in general. The first type are the smarties and second type are the 'relyers' as i call them, originating from the world 'rely' but don't hope to find it in the dictionary. The smarties are of course the best students which study hard to achieve their goals while the relyers, those who can't even live on their own. In my opinion I am in the middle, not too relying and also not to smart.
Being smart in my school is actually not a very good advantage in our school. As my friend have said, people will rely on you like parasites. I am actually not those kind of people who always volunteering to teach people. So as a result, sometimes I find them very bothering. For the girls, don't worry, I am not talking about girls, boys only except my best friends and others which help me a lot in my studies. I hereby would like to thank you all for all your help that you have given to me all these years. Back to the main point, these parasites would probably relying on you on every matter in school, homeworks, projects, even some administrative jobs. As my friend have stated in his blog, they will be very good to you when they need your help but however, when they are finished with you or even when they are needing you, they will be another person behind you.
If once in a while you ask for help, it may be reasonable but not frequently. I really can't imagine that our world have these kind of people that does not know the meaning of shame. If I ask somebody for help, I will always try to repay them back, if I can't, I will be very angry of myself.
Thats why, when we are young, we always hope that we understand more about adulthood. But when we grow up slowly, if I am given a choice, I will choose to be a naive child that understand nothing besides the simple life of child hood.